Today, I am on vacation. Actually, I am on vacation all week. Lately, I have bee feeling very 'off' my normal easy going attitude. In all honesty I have been feeling some depression and extreme fatigue since my miscarriage almost 8 weeks ago. And I really think today I have broken free.
We are at the cabin with some friends. And just the peaceful calm of this place is enough to rejuvinate my spirit. Plus seeing my daughter playing with frogs and catching bugs in her bug catcher always brings a smile to my face.
As I stood by the kitchen window watching my lovely family making a campfire together, I smiled. A content kid of smile that has been so fleeting for me lately. After dinner we took the girls down the dock to watch the sunset, and a loon was floating about 20 feet from the dock. Elyzabeth was mezmorize! Watching her in awe of such a beautiful creature made my heart sing.
I dropped her off at the cabin with her dad and retuned to the lake carrying my digital camera, with the 80-300 lense I love so much.
For the next 20 min I sat on the dock snapping photos of the most beautiful Loon I have ever seen. And the lake was so calm and beautiful it took my breath away. And calmed my spirit in away I haven't felt in a long time.
I know everything will be fine. And that God will take care of me. If I am lucky it will include another baby to love... if not, I will continue to cherish the ones I have. Either way... I am on vacation and recharging my spirit, reconecting with my husband and my girls, and loving the life God has provided for me.
